Thursday, September 22, 2011

Prayer for travelling people


If it is evening when they set out,

collect them into the last light

and make it dawn for them.

If someone kissed them

goodbye, let them both remember.

Give them fewer waits at airports

or train stations or bus stops

or rickshaw-stands. Mostly,

give them breath to walk

far and wide and with

clouds catching their eyes.

Keep them warm.

Give them silence if they

are happy. Give them

conversation if they are

in themselves alone

and thinking not just of

passing from place to

place but of passing the

very world by.

Bring to them the

kindness of strangers.

Fill their eyes.

Let there be someone,

when they arrive, to

bring them home.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Monday, March 14, 2011

fly by olidhar
fly a photo by olidhar on Flickr.

hyderabad.

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

i read this in the norton rendition today. kempe is marvellous. laughter builds and builds alongside wonder and admiration and intrigue and much else. but you read, really, for these moments, when it is simply impossible to not fold the book in your hands and give over -- several times -- to laughing out loud :).

Wednesday, February 02, 2011



winter. storm. winter storm.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

sunday. the second movement of mahler's second symphony. imagine a dead man. and then -- for what could be more retentive than a dead man's memory? -- him imagining his life in music. what a world of thinking back and longing. you remember it well into the sublime last movement and even after.

monday i came and went back and around and around and back all day listening to a man who had just died.

one reason for a very quiet birthday. but five voices to break my silence all day, and i am glad of them all.

go watch how the camera has to work to keep up with the man.




(detail from Vincent van Gogh, The Starry Night, Saint Rémy, June 1889 [photographed at MOMA])

Sunday, December 26, 2010



month of white and red.

and sometimes i think all i did this year was leave.

merry christmas, all.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

There was a pass on the mule track from Kalimpong where someone at sometime had put up a sign asking "Is it nothing to ye who pass by?" How strange, how deeply moving those few puzzling words. For these muleteers and horse riding traders, who sat on beautifully worled saddles and rugs or rich brocades, what did the end of a long journey mean? Not that Christ died for them, as I learned was the answer to the conundrum, but that they had crossed river and barren plateau, climbed high passes and were about to arrive at their destination with its many attractions for those who normally enjoyed none. For me those words were an aching challenge. If only I could go the other way, over the dizzy Jelep La and Tsang Po to Lhasa. Gape at the Forbidden City, perhaps see the legendary Dalai Lama. Oh yes it meant much to me who came upon that gentle Christian enquiry. Praise the gods, praise the Lord, praise the heavens I was at so wondrous a spot, sitting by a forested trail with mist racing past and the tintinabulation of bells coming from somewhere down the trail muted by distance and trees. How glorious to be alive in so wonderful a world.

Desmond Doig, 'A Bus to Gangtok', Look Back in Wonder (New Delhi: HarperCollins, 1995), p.21.

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

Sunday, August 08, 2010

Saturday, July 03, 2010

Monday, June 28, 2010

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Thursday, April 01, 2010

Tuesday, March 16, 2010



fir se dilli.

Saturday, February 06, 2010

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Saturday, December 12, 2009

all lovely, but this is today's.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

'Is it tired you are, stranger?' said one girl. I was walking very slowly, to pass the time before my return to the east.

'Bedad, it is not, little girl,' I answered in Gaelic, 'It is lonely I am.'

'Here is my little sister, stranger, who will give you her arm.'

synge.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Thursday, October 08, 2009

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

miltonists make me happy.
:)

Saturday, September 12, 2009

on summertime and related.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Thursday, August 27, 2009

“Traveling is a brutality. It forces you to trust strangers and to lose sight of all that familiar comfort of home and friends. You are constantly off balance. Nothing is yours except the essential things - air, sleep, dreams, the sea, the sky - all things tending towards the eternal or what we imagine of it.” - Cesare Pavese

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Monday, August 03, 2009

Monday, July 27, 2009

Friday, July 24, 2009

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

THE classic. and worth reproducing in full.

The Murder of the Impossible

Reinhold Messner

What have I personally got against "direttissimas"? Nothing at all; in fact I think that the "falling drop of water" route is one of the most logical things that exists. Of course it always existed - so long as the mountain permits it. But sometimes the line of weakness wanders to the left or the right of this line; and the we see climbers - those on the first ascent , I mean - going straight on up as if it weren't so, striking in bolts of course. Why do they go that way? "For the sake of freedom," they say; but they don't realize that they are slaves of the plumbline.

They have a horror of deviations. "In the face of difficulties, logic commands one not to avoid them, but to overcome them," declares Paul Claudel. And that's what the 'direttissma' protagonists say, too, knowing from the start that the equipment they have will get them over any obstacle. They are therefore talking about problems which no longer exist. Could the mountain stop them with unexpected difficulties? They smile: those times are long past! The impossible in mountaineering has been eliminated, murdered by the direttissima.

Yet direttissimas would not in themselves be so bad were it not for the fact that the spirit of that guides them has infiltrated the entire field of climbing. Take a climber o a rock face, iron rungs beneath his feet and all around him only yellow, overhanging rock. Already tired, he bores another hole above the last peg. He won't give up. Stubbornly, bolt by bolt, he goes on. His way, and none other, must be forced up the face.

Expansion bolts are taken for granted nowadays; they are kept to hand just in case some difficulty cannot be overcome by ordinary methods. Today's climber doesn't want to cut himself off from the possibility of retreat: he carries his courage in his rucksack, in the form of bolts and equipment. Rock faces are no longer overcome by climbing skill, but are humbled, pitch by pitch, by methodical manual labor; what isn't done today will be done tomorrow. Free-climbing routes are dangerous, so the are protected by pegs. Ambitions are no longer build on skill, but on equipment and the length of time available. The decisive factor isn't courage, but technique; an ascent may take days and days, and the pegs and bolts counted in the hundreds. Retreat has become dishonorable, because everyone knows

now that a combination of bolts and singlemindedness will get you up anything, even the most repulsive-looking direttissima.

Times change, and with them concepts and values. Faith in equipment has replaced faith in oneself; a team is admired for the number of bivouacs it makes, while the courage of those who still climb "free" is derided as a manifestation of lack of conscientiousness.

Who has polluted the pure spring of mountaineering?

The innovators perhaps wanted only to get closer to the limits of possibility. Today, however, every single limit has vanished, been erased. In principle, it didn't seem to be a serious matter, but ten years have sufficed to eliminate the word 'impossible' from the mountaineering vocabulary.

Progress? Today, ten years from the start of it all, there are a lot of people who don't care where they put bolts, whether on new routes or on classic ones. People are drilling more and more and climbing less and less.

"Impossible": it doesn't exist anymore. The dragon is dead, poisoned, and the hero Siegfried is unemployed. Not anyone can work on a rock face, using tools to bend it to his own idea of possibility.

Some people foresaw this a while ago, but they went on drilling, both on direttissimas and on other climbs, until the lost the taste for climbing: why dare, why gamble, when you can proceed in perfect safety? And so they become the prophets of the direttissima: "Don't waste your time on classic routes - learn to drill, learn to use your equipment. Be cunning: If you want to be successful, use every means you can get round the mountain. The era of direttissima has barely begun: every peak awaits its plumbline route. There's no rush, for a mountain can't run away - nor can it defend itself."

"Done the direttissima yet? And the super diretissima?" These are the criteria by which mountaineering prowess is measured nowadays. And so the young men go off, crawl up the ladder of bolts, and then ask the next ones: "done the direttissima yet?"

Anyone who doesn't play ball is laughed at for daring take a stand against current opinion. The plumbline generation has already consolidated itself and has thoughtlessly killed the ideal of the impossible. Anyone who doesn't oppose this makes himself an accomplice of the murderers. When future mountaineers open their eyes and realize what has happened, it will be too late: the impossible (and with it, risk) will be buried, rotted away, and forgotten forever.

All is not yet lost, however, although 'they' are returning the attack; and even if it's not always the same people, it'll be other people similar to them. Long before they attack, they'll make a great noise, and once again any warning will be useless. They'll be ambitious and they'll have long holidays - and some new 'last great problem' will be resolved. They'll leave more photographs at the hut, as historical documents, showing a dead straight line of dots running from the base to summit - and on the face itself, will once again inform us that "Man has achieved the impossible."

If people have already been driven to the idea of establishing a set of rules of conduct, it means that the position is serious; but we young people don't want a mountaineering code. On the contrary, "up there we want to find long, hard days, days when we don't know in the morning what the evening will bring". But for how much longer will we be able to have this?

I'm worried about that dead dragon: we should do something before the impossible is finally interred. We have hurled ourselves, in a fury of pegs and bolts, on increasingly savage rock faces: the next generation will have to know how to free itself from all these unnecessary trappings. We have learned from the plumbline routes; our successors will once again have to reach the summits by other routes. It's time we repaid our debts and searched again for the limits of possibility - for we must have such limits if we are going to use the virtue of courage to approach them. And we must reach them. Where else will be able to find refuge in our flight from the oppression of everyday humdrum routine? In the Himalaya? In the Andes? Yes certainly if we can get there; but for most of us there'll only be these old Alps.

So let's save the dragon; and in the future let's follow the road that past climbers marked out. I'm convinced it's still the right one.

Put on your boots and get going. If you've got a companion, take a rope with you and a couple of pitons for your belays, but nothing else. I'm already on my way, ready for anything - even for retreat, if I meet the impossible. I'm not going to be killing any dragons, but if anyone wants to come with me, we'll go to the top together on the routes we can do without branding ourselves murderers.

- Mountain #15, 1971

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Friday, June 19, 2009

i just found out this was online.

ralston i read almost two years back, now.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

fisher muldoon kinsella. from an evening's kerriganating.

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Saturday, May 09, 2009

'Ninian [St Ninian] (supp. fl. 5th–6th cent.), missionary and bishop, is credited with building Candida Casa at Whithorn, in south-west Scotland, where he was buried. It is symptomatic of the paucity of firm information about his life that there should be entrenched scholarly disagreement even about when he lived. It was generally assumed, on inadequate evidence, that he flourished in the fifth century; but more recently it has been argued, from the same inadequate evidence, that he was active as late as the mid-sixth century. Another suggestion is that there were, in fact, two Ninians, who flourished in the fifth and sixth centuries respectively. The only certainty is that the life and career of the real St Ninian is impenetrably obscure.'

from the oxford dictionary of national biography. scholarly writing, and all that.




p.s.

there is a notice on this page ('Create post') of blogger that says: 'Scheduled outage at 2:00AM PDT on Monday (5/11).' in my infinite wisdom, and, indeed, in my scholarly way, i thought i read 'Scheduled outrage at 2:00AM PDT on Monday (5/11).' i thought it a bit rich, and therefore re-read. and corrected myself. well.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Friday, February 13, 2009

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

oooh the fun of this!

Friday, January 16, 2009

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Thursday, January 01, 2009


anti climb paint!
Originally uploaded by olidhar
among other things.

i love walking.

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Thursday, December 04, 2008

i agree about the response, i think.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

carrying on from the last post, and because acd featured in a remarkable way in this.
where we got to hear about and see a great many instances of spirit photography right down from the middle of the nineteenth to the first half of the twentieth century. i wondered for a long time that a very reasoned and rational person is, of course, just as susceptible to losing a son in the trenches, and having no way to get that son back physically ever after, as anyone else. and that he wishes to reach out, possibly, as much as the next person does. so many people lost so much. (here, some of the much older people, for instance, never take their poppies off. some of them are wearing their poppy still, although 11 november is long gone.) and then, the 'extras', the 'ectploasm', the 'ether', the 'other', the 'one's very own' appeared beside their loved ones in the photographs.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

strange leisure. but i have grown to like the strange friendship. and brilliant writing. no getting around that.

Friday, November 07, 2008

elections (which i had not thought to take this kind of interest over) and fireworks (sans any guys) over.

christ's is pretty. but to me special for strange reasons. their year.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

i have read le clezio for a while and loved reading. i can't seem to be able to post the nobel link, for some reason. but my etoile errante he wrote on is now at home, and i suddenly miss it.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Friday, October 10, 2008

read.

amidst few and precious bijoyas.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

r pointed out: this this and this.
makes me absolutely mad.

although we had a lovely time in delhi, and actually quite fruitful, even in the Places Where They Mainly Trust Figures.

Tuesday, September 02, 2008









Citizens' Initiative, Kolkata

and

Women's Studies Programme, School of Social Sciences, JNU


request the pleasure of your company and participation at

Under Development: Singur


Panel Discussion on Displacement and Development


Amar Kanwar, Praful Bidwai, Tanika Sarkar

Committee Room, School of Social Sciences (1), JNU

Wednesday 10 September
5 pm to 7 pm



Photo Exhibition on Singur

School of Arts and Aesthetics, JNU
Wednesday 10 September to Wednesday 17 September
9 am to 7 pm



Development Dialogues

by the members of the Citizens' Initiative, Kolkata


Tuesday 9 September
Lady Shriram College for Women

Monday 15 September
Women's Studies Programme, School of Social Sciences, Jawaharlal Nehru University

Tuesday 16 September
Indian Institute of Technology, Delhi

Wednesday 17 September
Miranda House

Thursday 18 September
Indian Institute of Technology, Kanpur

All are welcome

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

heh
Henri Cartier-Bresson a 100 ans



Venez voir

L'AMOUR TOUT COURT



le 22 aout 2008
15 h 45
AV Room, Department of English, JU

Friday, August 15, 2008

Thursday, August 14, 2008

reviews. most of the stuff isn't readily available here, is the trouble.

Friday, August 08, 2008

i never imagined i would be sorry with the olympics. this, though, is beyond shame. about the policing of the entire set of pre-monsoon weather windows, the non-allowance of all other climbers on any higher reaches while the 'torch' was being taken up by an 'assault' team, of the great 'mountaineering' at evidence in the effort, i don't want to say.

in any case, one won't find anything save the most wide-mouthed smiles here. i recall tacitus citing calgacus of caledonia: they create a desolation and call it peace.

today is a sad day for sport.

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

i am, of course, a very industrious person. so i was reading my old blind man, as usual, and cleaning up my stuff, as usual. when i read this.
i think i would much much rather be like the old blind man -- messed up though that may be, because of how bull-headed one may be in certain things and spend one's life urging those things -- than a good critic of the old blind man.

Friday, August 01, 2008

You cannot cross over into the world of magic until you put everything else aside and behind you—including your own desires and needs—and focus on bringing an experience to the audience. This is magic. Nothing else.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

i can understand passion used like that. a function of love.

passion
c.1175, "sufferings of Christ on the Cross," from O.Fr. passion, from L.L. passionem (nom. passio) "suffering, enduring," from stem of L. pati "to suffer, endure," from PIE base *pei- "to hurt" (cf. Skt. pijati "reviles, scorns," Gk. pema "suffering, misery, woe," O.E. feond "enemy, devil," Goth. faian "to blame"). Sense extended to sufferings of martyrs, and suffering generally, by 1225; meaning "strong emotion, desire" is attested from c.1374, from L.L. use of passio to render Gk. pathos. Replaced O.E. þolung (used in glosses to render L. passio), lit. "suffering," from þolian (v.) "to endure." Sense of "sexual love" first attested 1588; that of "strong liking, enthusiasm, predilection" is from 1638. The passion-flower so called from 1633.

Monday, July 21, 2008

Friday, July 18, 2008

it would be so lovely to have something like this done for the bangla. off the top of my head, i don't know nearly enough, and that's what i kept thinking.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

'He rested the shopping bag on the bare concrete floor of the landing, realizing that his arm had gone quite sore from supporting the twenty pounds and more of groceries and books. He discounted the enticing possibility that "it was all a dream," for the dream-world is the reality of the dreamer, to which he could not weakly surrender, no more than one could surrender to the realities of life. Besides, he was not dreaming; of that he was quite sure...'

another gaiman pointer.

i first read any merely mortal Tom after he was dead.

Monday, July 07, 2008

in the daily papers now, and some clarifications are necessary.

singur is not a village. it is a block. of which, we were in six villages.

ci has not discovered that 100 acres and no more or less will be used for purposes of the factory. we could have done no such thing without having been privy to plans of the owners/leasees of that land. however, we do know that the factory itself will not use all the 997 acres of land, and that ancillary units and god knows what else will indeed enjoy the use of a large fraction of all the leased land.

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

the exhibit is over at 8 pm on 2 july.
watch it now and, well, forever lose your peace.

Thursday, June 26, 2008



Under Development: Singur


Photo Exhibition

27 June to 2 July, from 2 pm to 8 pm


Panel Discussion on Displacement and Development

4.30 pm, Friday 27 June


Speakers:
Professor Samik Bandyopadhyay (Senior Film Critic and Scholar)
Dr. Kavita Panjabi (Professor, Department of Comparative Literature, Jadavpur University)
Dr. Rajarshi Dasgupta (Fellow in Political Science, CSSSC)
Dr. Paromita Chakravarti (Senior Lecturer, Department of English, Jadavpur University)

Film Festival

Saturday 28 June and Sunday 29 June


28 June 2008
11.00 am - Bombay Our City – Anand Patwardhan (India: 1985, 82 min)
2.00 pm - Mahua Memoirs – Vinod Raja (India: 2007, 80 min)
4.30 pm - Czech Dream – Vit Klusak and Felip Remunda
(Czechoslovakia: 2004, 90 mins)
6.00 pm - An Aura of Development - Shubhasree Bhattacharyya and Sumantra Roy
(India: 2008, 65 min)
7.00 pm - Unnayan - Banduker Nole - Pramod Gupta (India: 2007, 44 mins)

29 June 2008
11.00 am - A Narmada Diary – Anand Patwardhan (India: 1996, 60 min)
2.00 pm - Still Life – Zhang ke Jia (Hong Kong: 2006, 111 min)
4. 30 pm - Mahua Memoirs – Vinod Raja (India: 2007, 80 min)
6.00 pm - Teardrops of Karnaphuli – Tanvir Mokammel (Bangladesh: 2006, 60 min)

to be held at the
Seagull Arts and Media Resource Centre, Kolkata
.

All are welcome.


Wednesday, June 25, 2008

a weirdo a day. such marvellous authors.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Monday, June 16, 2008

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Sunday, May 25, 2008

i had a most marvellous browse.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

sorrow beyond i can tell.

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Friday, April 25, 2008

Monday, April 21, 2008

as early as 2006.

Friday, April 18, 2008

howl. linked from here.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

'Those were, however – with the exception of pointing out the occasional objective mistake – simply my opinions, and I don’t consider them to be privileged. Once you’ve written something it’s not yours any longer: it belongs to other people, and they all have opinions about it, and every single one of those opinions is as correct as that of the author – more so, perhaps. Because those people have read the work as something perfectly new, and, barring amnesia, an author is never going to be able to do that. There will be too many ghost-versions of the story in the way, and besides, the author cannot read it for the first time, wondering what happens next, comparing it to other things that he or she has read.

So while I may, opinionated myself, disagree with some of the conclusions presented here, I am quite content for the opinions to exist; after all, the people who came to them read the work for the first time, which is more than I’ve ever managed... I’ve always enjoyed it, perhaps because I’ve always had a healthy respect for academia. Even when I'm puzzled by it, it treats art like it matters. And for those of us who make art, that’s a fine thing to experience.

I’m always particularly delighted by academic attention to comics – partly because I think we need the best critical minds to point to what we do and explain it to ourselves, and partly, even mostly, because it shows how much things are changing. (A decade ago I was invited to speak at one major American university by the art department, and was informed, apologetically, that the English department were, ah, boycotting my talk, because, after all, I did comics. These days the invitations come from the English departments...)'


the branagh, in one of his moments of obtuse honesty, said he thought actors were nice people. well, i think academics are nice people. and i think the department of english is a marvellous thing.

the cite is from the journal. the man can write.
but then, it is the sort of writing i would like, because of how much reading there is in it.

Friday, April 11, 2008

i dare say there was no call for it. but i have just scared myself silly reading some blake. there is some gall to a man who can do that in that kind of metrical ease.

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Thursday, March 20, 2008

je voyais, j'ecoutais

edith piaf
je ne regrette rien

paroles: michel vocaire
musique: charles dumont

Non ! Rien de rien
Non ! Je ne regrette rien
Ni le bien qu'on m'a fait
Ni le mal tout ça m'est bien égal !

Non ! Rien de rien
Non ! Je ne regrette rien
C'est payé, balayé, oublié
Je me fous du passé !

Avec mes souvenirs
J'ai allumé le feu
Mes chagrins, mes plaisirs
Je n'ai plus besoin d'eux !

Balayées les amours
Et tous leurs trémolos
Balayés pour toujours
Je repars à zéro

Non ! Rien de rien
Non ! Je ne regrette rien
Ni le bien, qu'on m'a fait
Ni le mal, tout ça m'est bien égal !

Non ! Rien de rien
Non ! Je ne regrette rien
Car ma vie, car mes joies
Aujourd'hui, ça commence avec toi !

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

among the many he pointed out.
the why. a different sort of why. very valid.

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Monday, February 04, 2008

now improvising, having run out of space on my own account.
i must say i have no dearth of excitement.